Sad Sad day....

I lost my job yesterday...... Probably the worst timing possible..... A.J and I have been trying to get into this home. We got approved officially on Tuesday and I was so excited. I wish it could have just been delayed until we closed. A.J could afford it on his own, so thats not the issue. He just cant qualify without me. Now we dont know what to do. I slept a total of about 3 hours last night and spent the rest crying. Its my fault, lol maybe if I didnt suck at life right? Anyway I better just accept the fact that something that was working out so well, was just too good to be true......Hopefully next time I will have something happier to blog about. Sorry to be so depressing. I just finally felt like things in my life were going right. I grew up being told by my drug addicted, abusive parents that I would never amount to anything. I feel as though I have succeeded in being the opposit of them, but cant help but feel like they are right sometimes. Its my pity party right now and I know that is selfish. I just feel like I have let my husband down. I think I might go to the temple and hopefully that will put my life in perspective. Until then I hope everyone has a good one.

I forgot one more thing!

I also forgot the best news as of late. So I have to tell you the story, when I was 17 almost 18 I went into American Eagle to buy some clothes for Aj. The cashier asked me if I wanted to sign up for a credit card and I told him I wasnt old enough. He said how close are you to 18? I told him a few months and he told me it would be fine. I had never had a credit card but my dad always always was teaching us about them and how there not good if you dont use self control or good judgement. And so I knew it wasnt the best idea but I was determined to prove to him and myself that I could be responsible with it. So I got the card and I said to my self I will only put a $100.00 Dollars on it and then when I get paid in two weeks I am paying it off completely. So I got paid, and I didnt have a checking account or anything, so I always just cashed my checks. I went in and asked how I could pay my card off. The kid Daniel ( yes I still remember his name ) asked how I was paying ( because he was going to see if he could scam me or not ) I said cash. He then proceeded to say I could just pay him and he would send me a receipt in the mail! ( wow how could I be so stupid! ) I then agreed and handed him a hundred dollars. He pocketed my money I am assuming ( seeing as how the only way to pay on those cards is over the internet and for some reason it didnt end up getting paid off....) It took them six months to notify me and I was so scared to tell my dad that I tried to handle it on my own. Long story short they screwed my credit! I had Aj talk to one of the creditors about a year in because I didnt see how I kept paying on it and my balance wasnt going down. The guy told him if we paid 170.00 dollars right now then he would shut the account and he would take off all of the interest. We did that and he ended up not taking off the interest so it took them another six months to contact me again! ( by this time american eagle sold my credit and then they sold it again. So this is the third creditor ) I had my mom draft up a letter recently to send to them and to send to the 3 major credit score companies. And when I say I, I mean AJ! He just called them yesterday and they said that they are closing my account and that it will be completely off my credit and in 20-30 days my credit will show like it should have been. There saying above a 750! I never miss a payment on anything and I never go over fifty percent on any credit line.

I have to give the credit to AJ who has been dealing with them for over a year now ( and I have been fighting them for two years! ) He took it in his hands and took care of all the messy stuff. He is the reason why I am delinquent free. He is so amazing and I am so grateful for him. He makes me so happy and he is my rock! I love you AJ and I will never stop smiling with you around!

Lately

It has been so crazy lately!!!! I wish I had something really interesting to blog about but I dont. Lately we have been searching for a house. It is a love hate relationship! I love looking at houses and walking in and seeing what I do and dont like and what I could do to the space, but I hate how stressful it is. Especially when you find a house you like just to find out that its under contract or the people who put in offers are way over your price range. We had two that we really liked but we couldnt decide between them. Then we finally made up our mind on a sunday and she called on the following monday.....and of course they both went under contract saturday night. That really bummed us out especially because there werent alot of houses on the market that we loved! Well our lovely realtor ( who is amazing! ) found us our dream house!!! ( well for first time home buyers that is ) and we love her for it! ill post a few pictures, and I need to learn how to wait until things are guaranteed before I run my mouth but its hard. We are 99% sure that we will qualify completely. We have our down payment, now we just need to wait for the banks and for it to close. They are telling us that they are pretty sure they can get us closed in the middle of july!!! And if that is the case its going to be a busy busy month! We are going to moab the first week of july for the fire works and of course four wheeling. Then we will come home and move! I am so excited! I keep praying my little heart out that if it is the lords will than it will happen. I know if I do my fifty then he will do his fifty. Its crazy because I have noticed the more I go to the temple, the more I read my scriptures and the more I try to remember my prayers in the morning the more blessings I receive. He is amazing and I dont want to know where I would be without him!

ps: the pictures dont do it justice, when you walk in the front door you see the stairs up to the loft and all above you is open ceiling all the way to the roof with windows up there. I love it, once we get moved in I will put up more pictures.

A little late I know!

Kenzie is obsessed with rocks so this above is her trying to dig one out of the bottom.

Like I said she wants to catch them so bad, she did this all day and could do it forever!

My little mountain goat on the rocks trying to get the best view of kenzie

Oh how much I do love this person, He is amazing in everyway possible!

Sorry everyone that my blog has been a little (ok alot) outdated. Life has been so busy. first I will tell you about our two year anniversary. Well I know that you are supposed to be doing the big fun anniversaries at first and then they get dull as you get older, lol but we do the opposite. On our first anniversary we painted our bedroom wall, and now this anniversary I had him take me shopping. AJ is so cute, he got a room up at sundance resort and planned out all these fun activities, So here is how our conversation went.


Lacey: How much total is it?
AJ: um....$400.00
Lacey: holy crap dude
AJ: Well I was afraid that you would be disappointed if I didn plan something fun.
Lacey: You are buying me a house, thats plenty!


So the plan is, as our anniversary present to eachother we are just going to purchase a house. That sounds good enough to me!

Anyway that day we took the dogs out to a little lake/pond behind Lone Peak to let them swim. Hilarious!
Kenzie is a hunting dog so she just gravitates toward any animal that could be considered a game animal. There were ducks all over the place and she would try and sneak up on them. She would start to get close to them in the water and then once she got close she would lay low in the water and glide towards them. Hilarious. And gizmo doesn realize that he can swim so he just goes in as far as he can reach and then he makes sure that he can see her. There were these little docks on the pond/lake and I watched him go out on one so that he could get a better look at his girl and a board was missing....well he didnt realize that and fell through! Wow talk about scaring the crap out of someone, I thought he was going to drown! So I went charging over there my hear beating a bajillion miles an hour and he came swimming out from underneath it. Then I could laugh but it did really scare me and him. Then gizmo and kenzie found a dead cat fish and they played with it a little in the water. so sick!

all in all it was a great anniversary! I love you so much AJ, you have taught me so many things, the biggest is how to love someone unconditionally. Sometimes I just sit and think about him and I cant help but smile. The lord must really love me to have sent you to me. I cant wait to spend eternity with you. I dont deserve you and I hope that one day I will!!! Always and Forever love!

Our two year anniversary

So our TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY is in just a couple of weeks ( june first) I cannot believe its been two years! man does it fly by! But there is one thing I can tell you and thats that it has been the most memorable, fun, eye opening, interesting two years of my entire life! I cannot tell you how much I love Aj, I thought I loved him two years ago but thats nothing compared to right now. Everyday my love grows stronger and it will be stronger tomorrow then it is today. I am saying too much ha ha I should wait until the actual day I know. We had our photo's done to mark our two years together at wheelers farm. It was alot of fun and alot of smiling. Ill post my favorites. I just got the cd back yesterday and she had taken 425 photo's! We will be doing somemore soon, our friend Kurt just got into photography and is building his portfolio. So he asked us if we would like to do some, and we said yes of course. It really is awkward but I love pictures there so fun!

St George Fishing Trip

This was me at six in the morning cold!

Aj's big fish! Atleast 4 lbs

Conners fish

I am on my lunch break so I only have half an hour so I have to make this quick. So this last weekend we went to st george to fish. We left friday evening, which friday ended up being an adventure in of itself. We intended to leave as soon as everything was packed up, so we had everything ready to go and we drove to conners house to meet up and leave. We got there and no conner..... Aj then called him and asked where he was. I guess conner was at his sisters house, he had to come home and drop his dog off then we were going to leave. The last thing aj said to him was to hurry. ( knock on wood is what we should have done ) Conner was trying to hurry and some lady he was following stopped at a green light and conner rear ended her. We then waited for the cops and they all did there whole investigation and decided that no one was at fault when in fact the lady stopped at a GREEN LIGHT! We then proceeded on with our trip with conner in pain the whole time because he already has a jacked up back and then he got in an accident. We got to st george and the weather was fantastic!!!! ahh it was so warm I loved it. Our trip consisted of alot of swearing from aj, conner falling, me almost beating them with the amount of fish I caught, peeing off the side of the boat, my hook getting caught in weeds and aj saying" just yank really hard" which I then proceeded to do and my hook comes flying back and barely missing both of them, alot of laughing, launching at six in the morning, lots of sun, and of course a whole lot of fun!!!!! I am now hooked on fishing. I never thought I would like it but man after you start to catch alot of fish its so fun!

On sunday it was the hottest, 80 degress! I did not want to come home. Next time we will plan for a longer trip. Three days is not long enough!

Control Your Attitude

I found this quote and I loved it so I thought I would share it.


Successful people understand how critical the skill of having a good attitude is. I won’t tell you that having a good attitude is going to keep things from happening to you, or make your life perfect. We all have challenges; however, having a good attitude will help you deal with the things that happen to you. And really that’s what we need, the ability to deal with the things that happen to us. We all have challenges to face, but it is how we deal with those challenges that will determine our success. If you were traveling in a car and got a flat tire, -you wouldn’t give up on your trip, you’d fix the tire and continue on toward your destination. The same is true for any challenge we face. Successful people learn from the problem and then leave it behind in their rearview mirror.“We cannot choose the things that will happen to us. But we can choose the attitude we will take toward anything that happens. Success or failure depends on your attitude.” Alfred A. Montepert