Thursday, July 2, 2009

Sad Sad day....

I lost my job yesterday...... Probably the worst timing possible..... A.J and I have been trying to get into this home. We got approved officially on Tuesday and I was so excited. I wish it could have just been delayed until we closed. A.J could afford it on his own, so thats not the issue. He just cant qualify without me. Now we dont know what to do. I slept a total of about 3 hours last night and spent the rest crying. Its my fault, lol maybe if I didnt suck at life right? Anyway I better just accept the fact that something that was working out so well, was just too good to be true......Hopefully next time I will have something happier to blog about. Sorry to be so depressing. I just finally felt like things in my life were going right. I grew up being told by my drug addicted, abusive parents that I would never amount to anything. I feel as though I have succeeded in being the opposit of them, but cant help but feel like they are right sometimes. Its my pity party right now and I know that is selfish. I just feel like I have let my husband down. I think I might go to the temple and hopefully that will put my life in perspective. Until then I hope everyone has a good one.

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  1. ah... i'm so sorry!! That sucks so bad! That happened to me too when we were getting our house too so i know how ya feel it's like the worst feeling ever :( But it still worked out so maybe it'll still work out for you guys :) i sure hope it does! If ya need anything let me know :) Love ya girl! keep your head up ;)

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  4. Love I know its hard but heavenly father is always testing us this is just another big test he has sent to you. Look at how great you did on all the other tests and how much you have over come! Your a strong women!!! What doesnt kill us only makes us stronger! I know you want that house really bad but you have to look at what you have now... You have a great faimly who loves you, Aj, Me (which is an amazing freaking blessing!) ;) you have a strong testomony of the church, and the voice of the holly ghost to guide you! && always stay positve maybe this will open a door to a better job with more money and maybe you and Aj could then get a better house! Or maybe it alreadt went through and you got the house. Just remember heavenly father loves you and he has a plane for you! && remember I love you too and you can always come to me with anything good or bad!!!!!!
    Btw your blog thing wont let me post it so I hope this time it works lol! :)

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  5. I'm sorry Lacey! That's horrible news! I will definitley keep on the look out for a good job for you. In the meantime, let us know if you need anything!

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  6. hey this is dani's sister, Tahnee! Sorry to hear about your house!! I hope things work out!

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  7. Hey guys thanks for your comments!!! You guys are awesome!!! We are crossing our fingers, we think its going to work out even though I dont have my job. Love you all!

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  8. I'm sorry to hear about you job. I can't imagine how hard that is. Everything will end up working out.

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  9. I feel bad but I cannot put my finger on how we know each other...But I saw your comment on our blog which was so sweet! Anyway I came to your blog and read your about me on the side..then I read your first post. What you wrote I totally felt like I could relate to! I had a rough upbringing and I know how you feel like you have to prove to yourself that you are better than what you came from! It was good to know womeone else out there feels the same way I do! But as for your house falling through...I think that you'll be so grateful it fell through when something better comes along. It will all make sense and you'll be so so grateful everything happened the way it did! Good luck with everything!! Write me back and let me know how we know each other or maybe you know my hubby?? Let me know : )

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