I got it!

K so if your reading this and havent read my last post then go read it! : ) so I got the job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a blessing! just thought I would update you on it.

The power of prayer

Ok so I havent had a job for lets say..... about two months now. Well when your husband is all commission based, you own a house, and two cars, plus all the little stuff, then it can be a little bit frustrating. I feel so bad for aj, he is so stressed. And if any of you know a commission based job, its harder to sell when your stressed. So this is basically my routine. I sit at home, on the computer on facebook, watching movies, and cleaning every speck of dust I see land. It can get a little old after awhile. At first I was like this will be nice to have a break, ya it lasted for about a week. So I have been on every job website known to man sending out my resume to the most ridiculous jobs that I know that I wouldnt like just to take the stress off aj. Plus lets be honest, lol I would love to go shopping. So for the last month I have had a dry spell I havent had any interviews or any feedback. And not to brag but my resume isnt exactly bad. I have an ok work history for pretty good companies. So monday I was sitting here thinking oh poor me, why hasnt anyone called me, when I got this thought. I thought when was the last time I fasted. Strait into my mind just like that and I had not even been thinking anything remotely close to that. And my answere was, five years. I havent fasted for anything for five years!! I am really good about saying my prayers and being faithful in the fact that I know they will be answered. So I decided that I was going to fast to find the right job, and I also fasted for aj in his work. So I ate monday night and then I got down on my knees and said a very long intense prayer to heavenly father. And deep down I knew that it would work, and that it would be very hard for me. But it was a sacrifice I was willing to take. Then after I said my prayer and kissed my adorable husband goodnight, I was laying there in bed trying to fall asleep thinking about fasting and prayer. And I got this overwhelming peaceful feeling wash over me. Usually it takes me awhile to shut down all the noise in my head to fall asleep and I know that the lord knows that. The last thing I remember before falling asleep was how cool it felt and how I knew that everything in my life would work out. Aj asked me how it felt for me to feel the spirit, the best way to describe it is when I see him sometimes I get these little butterflies in my stomach, so that and then add the tingeling sensation all over my body. I honestly cant describe it to match perfectly but thats the best I can do : ). So then I wake up and start going about my day. About noon hits and I am crying and telling aj that I dont think I can last another six hours. And if any of you know me very well I love food, when I get hungry I am cranky. I was told that I am hypoglycemic. ( I probabley spelled that wrong sorry ) So this was very hard for me. So aj told me to say a prayer for strength. I said a silent one in my head and immediately my stomach stopped growling and I got that warming feeling again. It was like that for the rest of the day. But what was cool was, I was sitting there watching t.v and I had a job that I interviewed at the day before. It was a receptionist position at a law firm that is literally five minutes away from my house. They pay really good and it was a very nice environment with very nice people. I want this job bad. But anyway I was sitting on the couch and I got a call from them wanting a second interview! I could not fathom it! When I was done with the first interview with them they told me they would be interviewing for the rest of this week and they would let me know next week what there decision was. And now they wanted a second interview from me in the same week? Ya it was pretty cool, But just cuz I got the second interview doesnt mean that this is the right job for me. If I get this job then it will be the right one. ( I interview tomorrow so I will let you all know) but I do know that the lord will point me in the right direction. So five o clock rolls around and it was time to break my fast. As soon as I was on my knees with my head bowed I felt the spirit so strong that I started crying. I knew that my fasting was not in vain, the lord knew that I was sacrificing to make my prayer that much stronger. And the beauty of it is that my fast wasnt even that big of a sacrifice, it was way hard, but it was worth it. And having the lord know that I love him so much to stop eating and drinking for a whole day felt good. What was even more crazy was that I was almost sad to end my fast. In that 24 hours I grew so much closer to him and I wanted that feeling to stay. What I am getting at is that prayer is such a strong thing!!! I have always known that ( lol I pray to find my shoes when I lose them and I always find them right away) but to add fasting to it, makes it that much stronger. I know that I will find a job very soon and that it will be the right job for me. The lord is going to help me find it. I can not even explain to you how much I love him, and how much I love the church. I dont know what I would do without it, and I know that because of the lord my marriage is alot stronger than it would be without him. I know that my life would be so lost without him also. He led me to my eternal partner and he will lead me to the right job. I hope that you have gotten something out of this and if not thats ok : ) cuz I know that I have.

Short Hair

So I used to have extensions..... I decided to take them out and I had been contemplating whether or not I wanted to cut all my hair off. Well I didnt have the guts to do it and everyone kept telling me I most likely wouldnt like it. So I decided agains it. Why not wait until I have kids. Well then I took out my extensions, and lone and behold my hair sucked! lol going three months without a trim what did I expect? Now I had to do it. Well I did it and i love it! Its hard to get used to but I love the basically no maintenance part and how easy it is. I am sure that I will soon miss my long hair but for now I am loving my short hair.

7 things that attract me to my hubby:
1. He is sexy
2. He likes some of the things I like
3. His smile, and his smile lines
4. His love for me
5. His laugh
6. The way he boosts me every day
7. His love for the gospel

7 Things I always say:
1. I love you baby
2. gizzy wizzy
3. kenzie benz
4. gosh dang it
5. haha ya ya
6. goof ball
7. calm down

7 things I love to eat:
1. Pizza
2. fries
3.t churros
4. tostadas
5. apples
6. cheese covered broccoli
7. soup

7 things I can do:
1 look at the bright side of things
.2. laugh
.3 play basketball
.4. I can take a joke
5. Eat crap and not gain weight... im not bragging ppl I just cant think of much.
.6 Be sarcastic
.7. Learn fast

7 things I can't do:
1. Not be baby hungry
2. let things go
3. not stop eating crap
4. wait to go to school
5. Stop loving my husband more everyday
6. get along with my mom
7. I can't stop getting on facebook everyday

Our California Trip

At the beginning of December we decided to take a trip to Aj's home town of Atascadero, California. So Aj, me, and Conner set off at 10 pm on saturday november 30th. Aj was gung ho on driving all the way through, but conner's back was killing him ( conner was in a bad accident awhile back and his back was broken) so we stayed in primm at buffalo bills. We then woke up to proceed forward with our trip. The trip to atascadero is sooooooooo long. I had to sleep to keep from getting too bored. On the way through you pass through wine country, and man is it pretty. rolling hills or orchards that are worth millions, if not more, of money. Thats when your getting close, and when I get way excited. Anyway we went and stayed with aj's aunt heidy in her amazing, old spanish, house. She is the most amazing lady ever! she cooks for us and is always so happy. And she is hilarious without trying. And of course her husband lee who is the chief of Hollister fire department, He is a funny guy. Our activities included, throwing apples at black tale deer in the middle of the day, Pismo beach, San luis obispo shopping, Mcclentocks ( disgusting) restaraunt, where I was pressured into eating a turkey testicle, pizmo hunting, getting broken for the first time by a chiropractor, and lots of scenic driving. I never really liked california, because all I had seen before I met aj was L.A, but you have to see his old home town. Its amazing!

How Aj and I met

K this is going to be a long one just to warn you. I was seventeen and so confused about where I was going in life. Especially with the church. I didnt really care who my friends were just as long as they were my friends. I changed who I was constantly just to impress people and I hated who I was. I had this group of friends that I started hanging out with, ( come to find out later caden and aj were friends also ) and they were good kids, who liked me for who I was. Well caden has a jeep, and I have one also. We were boating when he asked if I wanted to bring my jeep up with him and a bunch of his friends. so I agreed. Well this is where aj comes in. So were sitting there airing down our tires and around the corner comes aj with all four tires locked up. ha ha he barely missed me, but he claims he did it on purpose. So were all standing there talking and I couldnt help but notice how attractive he was. Plus he had a jeep so props right? Well I started asking questions from one of the other kids there. Come to find out he is 22, so strike one against me, he is a return missionary, strike two, and he is flirting with one of the girls there, strike three. So by this time I basically just didnt even think twice about it. So I end up getting stuck lol ( no surprise) so were all trying to get my jeep unstuck. Aj turns around on these abnormally large boulders just to pull me out. One of the kids that was there wrapped my tow rope around my brake lines ( he was high i guess) so when aj pulled on me my brake lines got pinched and torn open. Now i am stuck and I have no brakes. Then to make this hilarious situation ( sarcasm) even more hilarious, Caden gets in it and backs it out. So I went and gave him a big hug. Aj apparently felt left out. I thanked him of course. Any way, then we all turn around and I drive home with no brakes. Aj ends up keeping my tow rope for obvious reasons that I had no idea of. He ends up finding me on myspace and then we hung out that night. Well your prob thinking thats the end of the story? lol nope, I am so not done. We hung out for a month and a half strait. I swear all we did was make out ( I kissed him first ) I really liked aj and didnt want to lose him so we had the DTR conversation. He basically told me, in a nice way, that he didnt want a relationship. I was hurt thinking that I was just being used for a make our buddy. Then a couple days later he told me that I was right and he wants more. So now were official. We end up going to get a drink and I saw a bunch of my friends there ( they were all guys) and doing the natural thing I went and said hi and hugged them all. Aj thought I was a hooker ( ha ha) then on my way home from hanging that night he told me over text that he just wanted to be friends. I thought wow, he just wants a make out buddy. I basically told him that until he figures out what he wants im out of there. so I basically just ignored him over the course of two months. And by this time I knew that I loved him, but I wasnt going to admit that to myself. So you can see where I am coming from. Then he black mailed me ( lol) one day I got a picture message from him. It was the first night we hung out, we took a picture on the sinclair dinosoar. And from there he convinced me to hang out with him. And it was history. Its funny, people ask me how do you know. Well its different for everyone, but my first indicator was since the first day I met aj I wanted nothing but to be better. I wanted to be more active in church, I wanted to do everything I was supposed to. I wanted to do everything in my power to be better for him. To be good enough. And everytime I was down ( and still to this day) he boosts me up. Aj never not once has put me down. He makes me feel like the most important person in the world. I dont know where I would be without him. He helped me find me, he helped me heal from all the trauma I have been through. I will always be thankful to him. Mushy I know! but its ok.